Thursday, December 27, 2007
best christmas gift
We haven't seen Domieian since he left, and though I have had dreams of visiting him, his new family was not ready for us to come see him yet for fear that he would be confused. Last Thursday when I called for an update, I finally heard those words: "We are ready for you and Jeremy to visit Domieian". Oh if I could describe the anxiety, joy, fear, and anticipation that I experienced all in that one moment. My stomach knotted up, and I had that funny little ball in my throat that you get right before start crying, and I began thinking of what gifts I would bring for him, what he would look like, and if he would remember us?
Thursday night Jeremy and I faced the crowds to go shopping to buy Christmas gifts for Domieian. I was so nervous as I tried to make sure to get the right size clothes, and pick out a perfect toy he would like. Wow, is this what parents go through every year?? I can't believe how nervous I was that I would get the wrong thing! A new outfit, Nike shoes, and a toy truck later, we left the mall feeling successful.
On Friday Jeremy and I packed up the twins and set out to visit Dom in his new home. We were warmly greeted by his new stepmother and she welcomed us into the family room where Dom had just fallen asleep on the couch. He looked taller, and very peaceful. When she woke him, he seemed a little confused at first, but sat on my lap without a fuss, and didn't seem to mind as I carefully looked him over, stroked his hair, stretched out his fingers, and held him close. He didn't sit long before he noticed his gifts and intently pulled them onto the couch and began tearing them open. In true toddler fashion he gave great attention to every shred of wrapping paper, and as soon as he had ripped a piece off, he ran to the kitchen to throw it away. When he opened his new shoes, he took them out of the box and brought them to his stepmother and at that moment it was clear to me that he has made a successfull transition into his new home, and has built a healthy and trusting bond with his mother.
The rest of the visit including more opening gifts, playing chase through the house, pointing out objects he knew, looking at the photo album we gave him and lots of good conversation and laughter. I didn't get emotional during the visit, nor when we left an hour later to go home.
On the drive home I replayed the visit in my head over and over and began wondering why I felt such a sense of peace. I am no longer "mommy" to Dom, and I don't get to lay him down at night, or wake him in the morning, and at times this has been a great source of pain. But if anything, I left feeling selfish for all the times I have mourned over this child instead of being excited for him to be with his family. I was struck by the sense of entitlement I have had, and self pity that he was no longer with me, instead of experiencing joy that I was allowed to be his mother, even if for a time. And I think finally, having gone through some of my grief, and then seeing him doing so well, I began to feel peace.
I have learned a great many things from this experience with Dom, about being faithful, growing through pain, and most importantly - trusting God.
Trusting God with the outcome of our situations, trusting God to protect us, to take care of us, to reveal His will in His time. I wrote a friend recently and expressed my frustration in trying to figure God out, and her response was "Then don't!" The truth is that God's real purpose may not be revealed to us in this lifetime. We will be called to obediently walk through our circumstances, faithfully following the path laid before us, and having to trust that although we don't know "why", we know the "what".
Abraham was told to bring Isaac to the mountain as the offering though he didn't know why. Mary was told that she would raise the son of God, but didn't know the outcome. Throughout the bible there are stories of God's people obediently following a path laid before them, without knowing where it would lead or what obstacles and pain they may face on the way.
I guess that's how it is with us. We are following this path, and while I don't always get to see the master plan, I was thankful to get a glimpse of it this past week in visiting Dom. Knowing what heartache it has been for us, but then what a joy it was to see him at home with his family, I see how it can all fit into God's greater purpose. I know I won't always get to see how things work out for God's glory, but am thankful that this Christmas I was able to.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
christmas recount
Grandparents: 2
Parents: 2
Siblings: 4
Sibs in law: 3
Aunts: 3
Uncles: 2
Cousins: 9
Nieces: 2
Nephews: 3
Total: 30
That's right folks, 30 family members for a weekend packed under the same roof, same time, every year - and it's grand.
Of course, the obvious question is "what exactly do you DO that whole time". Well, lots of things, we have a yankee swap gift exchange, an auction, sometimes a pinata for this kids, we build snow men, have snow ball fights, and we always top of the evening by burning something.
Well, this year my father, wanting to exercise his new snowblower, decided to snowblow the backyard (yes, the backyard) in one giant crop circle. This left a gigantic mound of snow piled up in the middle of my parents back yard about 5 feet high and probably 10-15 feet in diameter. While at first we all laughed at the absurdity of snowblowing your backyard into a ginormous pile, we quickly learned how much fun huge mounds of snow can be!
Consider, this mound soon turned into an igloo, a sledding hill with steps going up, and wall to hide around during snowball fights, a climbing mountain, and most importantly - a stand upon which to place a teepee like figure for burning later on.
I will attempt to add video later, but for now, here is a glimpse of the snow mountain.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
horrible driver and shameless promotion
5. Ran out of gas on the way home tonight on Route 5...with babies in the car, during busy traffic, and p.s. it's freezing outside.
Here are the excuses:
1. My fuel light didn't come on.
2. Even though the pointer was below zero I was still waiting for the fuel light and thought I could make it.
3. I am an idiot.
Alright, forget number three. I really was just waiting for the fuel light and in its absence assumed that I MUST have more gas. And yes, apparently it is broken.
Alas, my husband the hero came and rescued his damsel in distress within minutes - after of course taking the opportunity to engage full hyena laugh on the phone. The laugh of course was in vindication after I used his car and left it on empty only days ago, causing him to hike home and back, gas can in tow, after HE ran out of gas on the road as well. I think we will be fixing the gas light soon.
Speaking of husbands hyena laugh, we are fervently praying for a new job in full time ministry for Jeremy that will allow:
- exercise in areas of gifting (preaching, teaching)
- communication (developing, creating and enhancing the media with which we communicate the Gospel)
- flexibility to continue Seminary (starting January)
In the meantime, our back up plan is Starbucks, or maybe something that includes free buffalo wings. Actually, Jeremy has perfected his own home made buffalo wing recipe that has saved us generously in funds. Though, I don't know that it has benefited High Bridge Pizza with whom we had a personal tab with until we began to fry chicken from home. Maybe we will open up our own wing place..."J and C Wings". I think it has a nice ring to it.
So, here's an invite - call us up if you want to partake in this new deliciousness, you will never want to order out again!
Oh, and if your little pointer is below zero fuel but your light is not on, you may want to fill up just in case.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
marshmallows and criticism
There is some criticism however that you just can't avoid and you are unable to identify on your own. There are times when flaws must be identified and called out, and we come face to face with our imperfection. And it's in those moments, as uncomfortable as they are, when we are most challenged to grow.
18And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect [a] the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. Corinthians 3:18
Friday, November 30, 2007
fruits
Hey, I don't know if you remember me, but I went to Old Cutler Presbyterian back when I was in high school (like 5 years ago), and attended the youth group when you and Jeremy were working with it.It's amazing how God can use us in ways we would never imagined.
Anyways, I wasn't a Christian back then (far from it actually), but am now. It's interesting, but the one thing I really remember back from those days was you leading a girls Bible study and sharing a little bit about your testimony. I remember in your tearful talk you telling us girls to wait until marriage to have sex. It's funny, but I believe that one talk kept me from losing my virginity in college before I became a Christian.
So, I wanted to say thank you. You may not remember me, or may not have known it, but you touched my life and I am thankful for that. Now I am an adult leader for the high school youth group at my church, and am hoping to make a difference in their lives, as you have made a difference in mine.
the great discrepancy
This is what He has given us to do, this task here on this earth, not the task we aspired to do, but this one. The absurdities involved cut us down to size. The great discrepancy between what we envisioned and what we've got force us to be real. And God is our great Reality, more real than the realest of earthly conditions, an unchanging Reality. It is His providence that has put us where we are. It's where we belong. It is for us to receive it--all of it--humbly, quietly, thankfully.Oh the absurdities! The many mundane things that fill our time. I find myself reminising on the grandour I envisioned for my life and the reality of the pile of clutter that actually is my life. For instance, the four loads of folded laundry stacked in my bedroom waiting to be put away, the overdue movies that Hollywood Video is pestering us about, the mess in the basement, the dog food under the steps, the pile of papers on my desk at work, etc. And I think to myself, is this what it's all about?
-elisabeth elliott
Yes, and no. Two things I am sure of: I will never be free of tasks which I don't like, and I have the freedom to choose how I respond to these tasks.
This isn't a "pray for your babies while you monotonously fold each piece of their clothing" philosophy, it's a "choosing to allow God to reshape you as you faithfully fullfill the duties of whatever post you have been called to". I don't want to work full time and also try to juggle being a good mother, wife, friend, housekeeper, etc. But for now, God has allowed me to be in a challenging place, and if I can recieve this -- humbly, quietly, thankfully -- I'm excited to see how he will grow me through this process.
Well, most of the time I'm excited. Alright, some of the time. Ok, let's just say I'm working on it.
For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.
-Philippians 2:13
Sunday, November 25, 2007
93 minutes wasted
I don't know if "wasted" begins to even do justice to what I happened to my precious time. "Swallowed into the eternal abyss", "painfully stripped", "destroyed with the devastation of a santana blaze" or "massacred" may better describe the moments lost while watching the movie "Deck the Halls".
I rarely say this but I do believe I am actually dummer since watching that movie. See? I just mispelled dumber - I rest my case.
I feel bad only because in general I like the actors in the movie, but seriously, what were they thinking? I will make this brief, but just to recap the torchure which is "Deck the Halls";
- plot: 0
- character development: 0
- ditsy blondes: 3 (so sad, not even funny any more)
- scenes ripped from National Lampoons Christmas; 4+
- cheesy lines: SO MANY!!
Kelly Finch: What is your favorite Christmas memory?- laugh factor: 1 for stupidity
Steve Finch: You know what it is.
Kelly Finch: Tell me.
Steve Finch: I was 7, my dad and I moved to Alabama...and Christmas morning we ate on the floor, ate French fries and drank chocolate milk.
Kelly Finch: That's what Christmas memories are made from, they're not planned, they're not scheduled, nobody puts them in their Blackberry, they just happen.
I would recap the story line but I will waste even more time trying to figure out what it was. So in summary, compliments of rottentomatoes.com:
"Watching "Deck the Halls" is like getting a lump of coal in your stocking. Except receiving a lump of coal takes only seconds, while this awful movie goes on for an hour and a half."Do yourself a favor this Christmas. Skip the new holiday movies. Watch the classics; It's a Wonderful Life, Miracle on 34th Street, A Christmas Story, the real National Lampoons Christmas, or even Elf. Better yet, skip movies all together and read a story together, back some cookies for a neighbor, or do some old fashion Christmas caroling.
After all, if you go the movie route, you risk losing your precious time and more importantly - your sanity.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
on family
A year and a half ago my family consisted of Jeremy, myself and our two dogs. Then we added a little boy. Then a little boy left. Then we added another little boy. Then a little girl (a whole blog in itself). Then the little girl left. Then another little boy came. Then the little boy left. Then two little boys came. Did I lose you yet? We are up to 3 little boys, two adults, two dogs.
Then a little boy left - and here we are in our most recent family photo (minus the dogs).
Ah, the adventures of adopting through foster care. Despite our every changing family photo I wouldn't trade what we do for anything. I love these children that come into our family if only for a season. I love how it grows us and shapes us and allows us to be a part of something huge. I love how it brings out the best in both Jeremy and I and forces us to fully rely on God. All of this I am thankful for, despite the heartache that may accompany it.
"Though the sorrow may last through the night, Joy comes in the morning!"
-from the song Trading My Sorrows
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
the wait
I touched base with my girlfriend from Miami the other day who recently recieved an answer to prayer after years of waiting. Neither her nor her husband are US citizens. They live in Miami and have religious visas through the church they work for. She is German and he is Haitian, and while she is free to go home to visit her family in Germany, he has been unable to leave the country while waiting approval for permanent residency.
Imagine, they have been married seven years and he has been unable to visit her hometown, her grandparents, any extended friends or family. He has had to remain in the States while she took the children to visit her family. In the grand scheme seven years may not seem that long...but when you are waiting, just waiting, it seems to last a lifetime.
So now the wait is almost over. They received news that the papers have gone through and he will be able to travel about freely. It has inspired me to see them walk through this wait, adjust plans accordingly, with patience and trust in God's ultimate providence and plan.
I think about what I do with my "wait". How I respond in between the here and there. After all, is it really about getting to the place we want to be, or about the journey to get there? If it's about the place, then it seems when we get to Heaven God would just say "yep, here you are - way to go sport". Not so exciting.
I find myself getting so sidetracked on what it is I am looking for or waiting for, that I sometimes lose the lessons God is teaching me in the process.
I'm thankful for friends who inspire me to use the most of my "wait" and encourage me to take advantage of these times of uncertainty to seek God fervently, letting Him gently guide me and grow me. I am also thankful for friends who walk with me through the wait, providing laughter and relief in what would otherwise be stressful times ;-).
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
worst job
Sunday, November 11, 2007
truth about beauty
The video exposes some lies that the world teaches about beauty, and while I don't know much about Dove, I think the message is relevant.
"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."
Proverbs 31:30
Friday, November 09, 2007
fall behind
I thought out loud and remarked to Jeremy, "I wish it would stay Fall, I'm dreading winter." This sentiment was further solidified as we drove past our favorite pumpkin patch and saw that the corn maze and pumpkins were now cleared out and empty, awaiting the many evergreens that would take their place.
While there are so many things I look forward to in the holiday season, it is always hard to leave memories behind and forge ahead, especially when the path seems dark and uncertain.
My mother sent me an encouraging verse when I spent my first month away from home working at a summer camp when I was sixteen. It reminded me then, as it does now, that no matter what season we are in God calls us to find joy in all circumstances:
"Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior."
Habakkuk 3:17-18
Here's a favorite fall memory!
Jeremy in the corn maze with Michael in tow.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
call of God
Discerning the Call of God
As a little girl I especially loved the story of God's call to the child Samuel as he lay sleeping in the temple. I wondered if God would ever call me. Would I hear Him? What would He say? Throughout my growing years I read missionary stories and heard them told at our dinner table by guests from many lands who came to stay with us. I was always eager to know just how they were called. As a college student I worried much about whether I would fail to follow the Shepherd, would be deaf to His call. I thought it such a bewildering matter.
It is not a worry anymore. Experience has taught me that the Shepherd is far more willing to show His sheep the path than the sheep are to follow. He is endlessly merciful, patient, tender, and loving. If we, His stupid and wayward sheep, really want to be led, we will without fail be led. Of that I am sure.
When we need help, we wish we knew somebody who is wise enough to tell us what to do, reachable when we need him, and even able to help us. God is. Omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent--everything we need. The issue is confidence in the Shepherd Himself, a confidence so complete that we offer ourselves without any reservation whatsoever and determine to do what He says.
What He says? But how shall I know that?
He calls us every day, "o'er the tumult of our life's wild, restless sea." He comes to us in the little things, in the ordinary duties which our place in life entails. When I was a child He called me. The duty which my place in life entailed was obedience to my father and mother. In school and Sunday School He called me through the teacher. What she said I knew I was supposed to do. In first grade (yes, in public school) we sang the hymn, "Father, We Thank Thee." The second stanza says, "Help us to do the things we should, to be to others kind and good, in all we do at work or play to grow more loving every day." God's call again.
It's alluring to think of our own situation as very complex and ourselves as deep and complicated, so that we waste a good deal of time puzzling over "the will of God." Frequently our conscience has the answer.
My friend Jim O'Donnell tells how he, a hard-headed, hard-hearted man of the world, found Christ. His conscience was awakened. The call of God was immediate: "Go home and love your wife." The change was so sudden and so radical, Lizzie could not make head or tail of what had come over him. This self-confident and self-interested man had quit living for himself. He had died. An altogether new kind of life was now his. The first difference it made was the difference that mattered most--in his private life. It was there that he began to obey.
We are not talking here about audible voices. Although people in Bible times often heard God speak, we can expect that He will usually speak today through conscience, through the written Word, through other people, and through events. Events themselves, the seemingly insignificant happenings of every day, reveal the will of God. They are the will of God for us, for while we live, move, and have our being here on earth, in this place, this family, this house, this job, we live, move, and have our being in God. He "pulls strings through circumstances," as Jim Elliot said, even the bad circumstances (see Genesis 45:8, 50:20).
Three questions may help to clarify the call of God. Have I made up my mind to do what He says, no matter what the cost? Am I faithfully reading His Word and praying? Am I obedient in what I know today of His will?
"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul" (Psalm 143:8, NIV).
Monday, November 05, 2007
little interruptions
"She delighted in seeing her plan upset by unexpected events, saying that it gave her great comfort, and that she looked on such things as an assurance that God was watching over her stewardship, was securing the accomplishment of His will, and working out His own designs. Whether she traced the secondary causes to the prayer of a child, to the imperfection of an individual, to obstacles arising from misunderstandings, or to interference of outside agencies, she was joyfully and graciously ready to recognize the indication of God's ruling hand, and to allow herself to be guided by it." - The Life and Letters of Janet Erskine Stuart
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
faith, uncertainty, and valleys
"But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted loss for the sake of Christ. More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them rubbish so that I may gain Christ...that I may know him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death." (Phil. 3:7-8, 10)"For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison."
IT'S IN THE VALLEYS I GROW
Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then I have to remember
That it's in the valleys I grow.
If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.
I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys I grow.
I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.
My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.
Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.
Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.
Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it's in the valleys I grow!
Monday, October 15, 2007
you are a better driver than me
Saturday, October 13, 2007
everything
I think the video speaks for itself.
Blessings,
C
Friday, October 12, 2007
transparent
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
new dawn
It started with a small pair of shorts, and then socks hidden behind the crib. Since Dom left us last friday to live with his birth father, I have kept myself together for the most part. Tonight, I fought back my emotions and lost. I know he is in a good place. And I know that this is what we have been preparing him for for the past year. And I know that this is part of God's purpose and plan, to grow me, to grow him, to show His glory.
But tonight I hurt.
Praise God that tomorrow brings a new dawn.
In Him,
C
Deliver me
out of the sadness
Deliver me
from all of the madness
Deliver me
courage to guide me
Deliver me
Your strength inside me
All of my life, I've been in hiding,
wishing there was someone just like you
now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through
Deliver me
Loving and caring
Deliver me
Giving and sharing
Deliver me
This cross that I'm bearing
David Crowder Band
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Moonless Trust
I can't seem to find the words lately. Right now I'm just thankful to be reminded of God's truth through others.
Another Devotional, compliments of Elisabeth Elliot
Some of you are perhaps feeling that you are voyaging just now on a moonless sea. Uncertainty surrounds you. There seem to be no signs to follow. Perhaps you feel about to be engulfed by loneliness. There is no one to whom you can speak of your need.
Amy Carmichael wrote of such a feeling when, as a missionary of twenty-six, she had to leave Japan because of poor health, then travel to China for recuperation, but then realized God was telling her to go to Ceylon. (All this preceded her going to India, where she stayed for fifty-three years.) I have on my desk her original handwritten letter of August 25, 1894, as she was en route to Colombo. "All along, let us remember, we are not asked to understand, but simply to obey.... On July 28, Saturday, I sailed. We had to come on board on Friday night, and just as the tender (a small boat) where were the dear friends who had come to say goodbye was moving off, and the chill of loneliness shivered through me, like a warm love-clasp came the long-loved lines--'And only Heaven is better than to walk with Christ at midnight, over moonless seas.' I couldn't feel frightened then. Praise Him for the moonless seas--all the better the opportunity for proving Him to be indeed the El Shaddai, 'the God who is Enough."'
Let me add my own word of witness to hers and to that of the tens of thousands who have learned that He is indeed Enough. He is not all we would ask for (if we were honest), but it is precisely when we do not have what we would ask for, and only then, that we can clearly perceive His all-sufficiency. It is when the sea is moonless that the Lord has become my Light.
Blessings,
C
Monday, October 01, 2007
christian radio
Ahhhh, Christian radio. Who was the brilliant mastermind behind this 24/7 burst of incessant joy and happiness? It astonishes me how chipper Christian radio DJ's seem to be, always waking up on the right side of the bed, and greeting their listeners with an eerily cheery "Hi-diddly-ho, neighbouroo" (compliments of Ned Flanders). But as much as I have mocked Christian radio DJ's (and Christian radio in general) I found myself saddened recently as I received news that the Christian radio station I listened to in Miami has been sold and will no longer be on the air.
Most days 89.7 Spirit FM seemed to be the only light in the otherwise dismal and spiritless city that is Miami, FL. Cheesy DJ's and all, it was all I really listened to. Not that my options were bountiful, after all, virtually every other station in Miami consisted of some variety of the latest revamped and remixed club songs. Nonetheless, Spirit FM got me through three years in Miami, giving me my "daily dose of the Word" and introducing me to the personalities of James McDonald, John MacArthur, Tony Evans and Bob Coy. Sad that it is no longer :-(
Check out what's left of their website here: www.wmcuradio.com
In the meantime, I have found an online station that gets through my web filter at work to listen to. I'll try to remember to post the link when I go back to work. Which I wish was never, but will probably be tomorrow.
C
Friday, September 28, 2007
breaking the husk
Ouch. This hit home.
The worst pains we experience are not those of the suffering itself but of our stubborn resistance to it, our resolute insistence on our independence. To be "crucified with Christ" means what Oswald Chambers calls "breaking the husk" of that independence. "Has that break come?" he asks. "All the rest is pious fraud." And you and I know, in our heart of hearts, that that sword-thrust (so typical of Chambers!) is the straight truth.
If we reject this cross, we will not find it in this world again. Here is the opportunity offered. Be patient. Wait on the Lord for whatever He appoints, wait quietly, wait trustingly. He holds every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year in His hands. Thank Him in advance for what the future holds, for He is already there. "Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup" (Psalm 16:5, NIV). Shall we not gladly say, "I'll take it, Lord! YES! I'll trust you for everything. Bless the Lord, O my soul!
Read the entire entry here: http://www.elisabethelliot.org/devotional.html
C
report
It appears to be common among the human race, to desire to have control and power over lifes circumstances. This includes issues related to finance, work, family, and health. Of course, mankind should not try to control their future but submit to God's will and place their trust in Him. It is hypothesised, that if man were to lose the ability to control his own life and direction, his trust and faith in God for provision would increase.
p.s. Add a scipture tag to your blog http://www.christianwomenonline.net/scripturetags.html
C
Thursday, September 27, 2007
soaked
C
Friday, September 21, 2007
running
Two things I learned today:
1. $25 of gas will keep your car iddling for 15 hours plus.
2. If your car is left running in your driveway in Schenectady overnight, it will not necessarily be stolen.
Yes. I left my car running in my driveway overnight. Jeremy discovered my blunder this morning when he went to go to the grocery store and the car was already on and ready to go. I somehow managed to get out of it last night after returning from work, and failed to take out the keys and turn it off. So far Jeremy has only used this against me twice today:
ME: Honey, you forgot to hang up your towel.
HIM: I'm sorry, WHO left the car on overnight?
I guess I should get used to it. I will be hearing about this one for some time. Thank the Lord (seriously) that our brand new Kia Sedona did not get stolen - I don't think insurance covers stolen vehicles that had the keys in the ignition.
On a brighter note, I don't have to work all weekend and am excited for some much needed family time. Thankfully we still have the van to get us all around.
C
identity box
Years after starting this blog (I think I reserved it back when we lived in Miami) I am actually making an effort to blog regularly. This has inspired me to look up my old blogs from Myspace(sigh)Iand re-post them here periodically. This ones from August 20th, 2005.
I enjoy Myspace. I find it to be a great way to connect to old friends and new friends, keep in touch, vent out some thoughts, and carve out my own little corner of the giant internet cyberspace. Lately however I have run into one major problem that I like to call: the myspace identity box.
In mapping out this tiny little page I have struggled to incorporate all of who I am into one miniscule page that is supposed to define me for all of the internet world to see. No matter how much more I add to my site however I feel that every word or picture backs me further into a corner. My vast wonderous God inspired identity has been packed and shaped into a tiny little box. The image that comes to mind is from the movie Aladdin where the Genie talks about his powers of the universe being confined to an "itty bitty living space" inside the lamp.
I am tempted to erase my entire page just so that my identity will not be confined to a box, but seriously, that would just be boring. So I'll leave it up, but just for the record, I will try to sum up in an honest and candid manner, at my very core, who I am.
I am child of God saved by grace. This means two things to me. First, that I've found that on my own I am hopeless to find any real meaning in life, proven after a long search in my teen years that left me mostly bruised and scarred. Second, that my only redemption and identity is found in God through his son Jesus. Seriously, who is perfect? I'm an idiot most of the time and even on my best days I am a messy reflection of who I wish I was. Everything I try to do on my own I screw up beyond comprehension, so I've given up trying on my own and have embraced my Creator as my life mentor.
So that's me. A messy reflection of Christ. Try to put that in a box.
Good to remind myself where my priorities are.
C