Act 1.

Lately I've felt like everything has been building up to some climactic (or anti) moment where my life will actually begin. As if everything has been a dress rehearsal and stage setting for that moment when the curtain is drawn and the play begins.

It's so ironic that we spend our first 20 years waiting for adulthood, and then once we reach our 20's we spend the next 10 years wondering, "now what"? I'm finally at the point where I feel like everything has been building to this pivotal moment where life really begins. Of course there have been many milestones along the way that I thought would be the final breakthrough. Getting my ears pierced when I was 10, hitting the teen years, getting my license, graduating high school and college, reaching the legal drinking age, getting married, moving to Miami, moving back to Boston then NY, being a mom! Now that I've sorta maxed out the milestones, I think for a little while I was stuck in the "now what"? I know I'm not the only 20 something stuck in this pre-middle-age daze. In fact, I can't believe how many people in their 20's are still wandering around looking for purpose. I guess I just don't want to be that person anymore.

I've laid awake the past couple weeks, wondering, dreaming, imagining what lies ahead for us. Jeremy and I have reduced the clutter in our lives to a very specific vision, and it's very liberating having a single focus and purpose. For me, it's being a Godly wife and mom. I can't tell you how excited I am to meet this head on. Having juggled family life and a career for the past three years has been daunting. Being free to invest fully in being a devoted wife and mom is no small thing for me.

For Jeremy, it's starting a new church in our area. This single focus has been a long time coming for him and has not been devoid of many struggles, misdirections, and sleepless nights. Looking back, we can see how God has slowly been crafting this passion and vision in him all along, but was waiting for the right circumstances and timing to manifest. Wow, it's been a journey to get here!

We've had our fair share of warnings as we embark on these new journeys. Ironic, considering the alternative, which is no alternative but rather the same aimless wandering - but nonetheless, there are always those that may caution of the new obstacles or struggles you will face once you are actually focused on a goal. What's amazing is that when God so strongly gives you a vision for what he wants from you and what your purpose is, there is really little that the world can do to distract you from this calling. And when it does, we can only pray that some of you are there to encourage us to "stay the course"!

Welcome to Act 1 of My Life.

STAYING HOME!

I've resigned from my awesome job as a case manager to stay at home with the kids and I couldn't be more excited.  I've really enjoyed working with at-risk youth, especially girls, but my mommy guilt is overwhelming as I come home and wonder what little milestone I missed with the kids that day.  Not to mention that Jer and I are planting a church in our area, and this will help bring a much needed stability to our home life to more effectively minister to others and build up this new community of believers.      

 

This hasn't been any easy decision and we've done some tricky budgeting to make it happen, but there are many little luxuries that I will gladly sacrifice to be able to spend more time with my family.  I won't rule out working part time at some point, but right now I feel the call of the wide open road, with limitless possibilities, and the freedom from the constraints of being a working mom. 

 

Maybe now I will actually blog more?